We all want something we can’t have. But why? I think it’s part of human nature to try to justify things. Why did my cake bake unevenly? Why didn’t I make the 2021 State Basketball tournament? Why do I have to pay so much in taxes on my hard-earned money? Life is an endless cycle of “whys” much like a toddler starting to gain curiosity. If I’ve learned anything in my short 25 years, it’s that everything has a reason but we, as human beings, don’t always understand why. Sometimes the reasoning comes days, months, or years later. Sometimes, we never know.
Nobody’s Perfect
Sitting at home on a lonely Thursday night and I can’t help but wonder how my day didn’t turn out as planned. I did my work, I was nice (for the most part) to the people I interacted with, and I had a full proof agenda of how my night would turn out. It was perfect. Needless to say, some very important curveballs were thrown into my afternoon altering my mood and outings. I was pissed. I’m learning, very slowly might I add, to not speak my initial reaction when I’m upset. “Think before you speak” as I would hear growing up. But today, I fell short of those teachings. Today, I spouted off the first sassy comment to a friend. Initially thinking I was funny, his absent response awoke a fear inside me that I went too far. I looked up to the Lord above and shouted, “Why!?” Why do I target the people I love? Why do I have to say the first thought to my mind? Why can’t I have everything I always wanted? Ah, here it is. The notorious “younger generation” always thinking they are entitled to things. Guilty as charged. But aren’t we all. Don’t we all want something that we feel entitled too? Yes, I think so, but that’s not reality. In a world of crooked carrots and squishy grapes, we cannot always have the perfect scenario. There is a reason why you got the short end of the stick. We must understand that “patience is a virtue” or “good things come to those who wait” or as my family member says, “always play the long game.”
Stay Curious
Keep asking those questions because eventually you’ll answer the question yourself. Why do I target the people I love? Because I love so deeply and specifically, I feel like I can’t be betrayed. Why must I spout off the first thought to my mind? Because I like to be the sharpest tool in the shed even if the shed is crumbling at it’s foundation. And ultimately, why can’t I have everything I want? Because if we were given everything we wanted, then nothing in this world would have meaning. Families, expensive accessories, outdoor adventure, love; none if it would have purpose if we did not strive for it and go through a little bit of struggle to earn it. Think of a kid learning to ride bike. It takes road rash after road rash, scraped achilles after scraped achilles, and one dip over the handle bars to finally find the balance. Once they do, you can see that ear to ear smile from sidewalks away, whizzing past anyone who will watch. "Look mom, no hands!" It takes time, trial and error, and the constant curiousity to fulfill life with meaning.
So stay curious. Always ask yourself, “why?”, and remember that nobody’s perfect, not even the Royal family. Too soon?
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